Inside the cover, I wrote:
It's not an easy thing, nor a simple one to explain. You changed my world even before you had a name. I stopped being me, began to form an us. Temporary, I knew, but everything was for you. More water, less stress, value my body, ignore the mess. I learned all of these things before you were the size of a lime, they are lessons to carry with me for the rest of time. I fell in love with you under a blanket of stars, I told you of hope, of life, to cherish this time that was ours.
Four years have passed since then, four trips around the sun. I've missed you every day, loved you every one. Happy birthday little man. Have a blast, have some fun. I miss you today, every day, like always. I love you B* E*,
I feel so broken.
With Love Always