I know that you said you want no communication from me, but I cannot just let our relationship end at that. You have a piece of my soul that I would rather not lose due to a misunderstanding on our part. I am very sorry that you ever got the opinion that I would ever "steal" your baby. That was never, and will never be, my intention.
I respect you as his mother. I am not sure how I have failed to show you that. From the moment he was born, even before, I tried my best to step back and let you make the decisions for and about him. You chose his name, his doctor, the rules he lives by and so much more. I hope one day to forgive myself and to gain your forgiveness for failing Blake by causing you to lose faith in me.
I need to know what you want from our relationship. You have already gotten everything I have to give you. All I ask of you is the ability to know Blake and trust in the family that I chose for him. I never wanted to regret placing him with you and H. Please help me not to.
With Love Always,
MeAm I overstepping something? Saying something wrong? Is this letter completely off target? I do not blame myself for T's reaction to whatever was going on in her head by any means, but I do feel I failed my son by not fighting her decision more.
There will be more blogging about this weekend, maybe from the airports tomorrow.
With Love Always