Wednesday, February 9

The Big Reveal (Or Will It Be?)

If I have said it once, I have said it a million times. I have the best, most amazing friends anyone could ever ask for. It is an ever expanding circle. I had a friend (Hi D!) ask me tonight how we are going to tell B about his adoption. Well, this is what I have figured out.
I wanted B to know from the beginning that he was adopted. I never wanted there to be a big reveal. This was not because I wanted any credit, but because I believe that if it is not something that was ever 'hidden' from him, he would have less shame and bad feelings about it. Unfortunately, that is not the case. He does not know that he was adopted. I thought that with T's pregnancy, B would ask questions and the honest answers would flow out. I don't know if he did. I hoped that they would teach him that he did come from another belly, like all humans, but not T's. I am sure they did not lie to him.
He will, one day, realize he does not look like H. He will ask questions. Maybe that is when the reveal will happen. I have no control over that.
I am a control freak. Saying that scares me. I must me the master of what I can control, though. I will make sure B knows he IS loved by me. I will do everything in my power to be there for him when it does happen. I will love him every minute of every day before and after it. He will rebel at some point. He will hate me. He will question me. I will cry. I will be thankful for the security he does have with his parents. More than anything, though, I will be there for it.
I got approved for my apartment today. Moving day is tenatively March 25th. I WILL BE THERE.

With Love Always


1 comment:

  1. I hope you know how much I respect you and how you feel and what you did/do for B! much much mucooo love babe!